Comments on: Temple of Gracelessness http://blog.burningman.com/2013/02/tales-from-the-playa/temple-of-gracelessness/?utm_source=rss&utm_medium=rss&utm_campaign=temple-of-gracelessness Wed, 22 May 2013 12:17:22 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.5.1 By: Monkey Gurl http://blog.burningman.com/2013/02/tales-from-the-playa/temple-of-gracelessness/comment-page-1/#comment-97571 Monkey Gurl Tue, 19 Mar 2013 01:00:20 +0000 http://blog.burningman.com/?p=24146#comment-97571 BTW, I smacked my head on the doorway too….still didn’t get it….

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]]> By: Monkey Gurl http://blog.burningman.com/2013/02/tales-from-the-playa/temple-of-gracelessness/comment-page-1/#comment-97569 Monkey Gurl Tue, 19 Mar 2013 00:58:20 +0000 http://blog.burningman.com/?p=24146#comment-97569 Oh my God. THAT’s why my 2012 Temple experience was what it was. My first burn was 2011 and the Temple of Transition was so overwhelmingly unexpected for me, I just fell apart in there. I had a red magic marker too, but I didn’t bring it intentionally….it just happened to be in my bag. I was completely unprepared for the feelings and emotions I experienced there. I spent my time there (minutes? hours? a day????) cowering in a corner in the dust, writing everything on a little piece of the Temple, tears pouring. Later that year in the default, I made a peace with my Dad that I never would have had the courage to initiate otherwise. My Dad died 4 months later. When I could have been registering for my lottery ticket for BM in THAT big ticket fuckup, (but that’s another story) I was holding my Dad’s hand, telling him it was ok to go, that I knew he was tired. There is no where else I should or wished to have been.

So in ’12, going back, I was READY!! I had my picture of my Dad, stories are printed out, ready to leave his memory and all traces of sadness at the Temple. All neat and tidy and planned. No. No no no no no. That is NOT how life is. And neither is Burning Man, or the Temple or anything or anyplace else. You know the words, folks, you can’t always get what you want, but if you try sometimes….

the playa provides!!

My lesson was me sitting on a bench, having picked out my neat little corner where I was going to put MY offering, MY feelings, MY emotions. No. Not to be. Sitting there reflecting, looking around at all the people praying, chanting, singing softly, feeling …..nothing. It wasn’t there!! I was ready for it to be there but it just wasn’t there!!! Suddenly, two women came right over to where I was sitting, and starting trying to hang a big wooden spoon of some sort, writing and paint on it, a token I suppose. Well, I huffed to myself, this is MY spot. I’M putting MY stuff here!!! I watched the women struggling to hang their token, they were almost standing right on top of me, and I was getting really annoyed. Who the hell did these two think they were??? Couldn’t they see me sitting there? Was I invisible???? So, after a while, I moved away. Just went to the center of the Temple and tried to meditate on something positive. But till I read your post, MetaKim, I missed it. It is not ever going to be neat and tidy and safe and all what I want. Ever. And I missed it till just this minute.

So thank you.

xoxoxo

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]]> By: Droidle http://blog.burningman.com/2013/02/tales-from-the-playa/temple-of-gracelessness/comment-page-1/#comment-94641 Droidle Thu, 28 Feb 2013 22:14:13 +0000 http://blog.burningman.com/?p=24146#comment-94641 Jenny, the DPW workers are a surly bunch. They do work hard for long thankless hours to build the city, unfortunately many of them feel some breed of entitlement beyond their free ticket for the following year. Come to camp Risley/EIEIO (somewhere around b/c and between 5-5:30) this year, and we can be fat bitches together and I’ll make you a frosty drink. i love this story, I generally tend toward the impious jester type myself, though my first year, I used to get all butt-hurt and indignant when some bastard would break the spiritual air around me. Now I embrace the impiety of it all. I love you guys.

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]]> By: ranger osho http://blog.burningman.com/2013/02/tales-from-the-playa/temple-of-gracelessness/comment-page-1/#comment-94580 ranger osho Wed, 27 Feb 2013 23:34:07 +0000 http://blog.burningman.com/?p=24146#comment-94580 Beautiful piece! Thank you. I’m so grateful to be able to relate. -o

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]]> By: jenny http://blog.burningman.com/2013/02/tales-from-the-playa/temple-of-gracelessness/comment-page-1/#comment-94191 jenny Thu, 21 Feb 2013 22:58:22 +0000 http://blog.burningman.com/?p=24146#comment-94191 this reminds me of the one time i was sitting at the Temple and a car full of DPW workers drove by and called me a fat bitch.

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]]> By: Bruno http://blog.burningman.com/2013/02/tales-from-the-playa/temple-of-gracelessness/comment-page-1/#comment-94182 Bruno Thu, 21 Feb 2013 21:17:50 +0000 http://blog.burningman.com/?p=24146#comment-94182 THIS!!!! Fucking bloody brilliant! It has been six months since the burn and finally, this brings it all back home for me. Thank you! <3

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]]> By: Krisna MontKailash http://blog.burningman.com/2013/02/tales-from-the-playa/temple-of-gracelessness/comment-page-1/#comment-94113 Krisna MontKailash Thu, 21 Feb 2013 00:16:57 +0000 http://blog.burningman.com/?p=24146#comment-94113 Awww…. i love the way you just exposed ur vulnerability in this post! It will be ok baby, keep doing you and it will just be very much ok!

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